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Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.

Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...

Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.

Oh but God I want to let it go.

Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone.

Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show.

Never wanted it to be so cold.

Just didn't drink enough to say you love me.

I can't hold on to me,

Wonder what's wrong with me.

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.

Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...

Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.

Don't want to let it lay me down this time.

Drown my will to fly.

Here in the darkness I know myself.

Can't break free until I let it go.

Let me go.

Darling, I forgive you after all.

Anything is better than to be alone.

And in the end I guess I had to fall.

Always find my place among the ashes.

I can't hold on to me,

Wonder what's wrong with me.

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.

Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...

Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.

Oh but God I want to let it go.

I like where we are,

When we drive, in your car

I like where we are.... Here

Cause our lips, can touch

And our cheeks, can brush

Our lips can touch here

Well you are the one the one that lies close to me

Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly

I fell in love, in love with you suddenly

Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms

I like where you sleep,

When you sleep, next to me.

I like where you sleep... here

Cause our lips, can touch

And our cheeks, can brush

Our lips can touch here

Well you are the one the one that lies close to me

Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly

I fell in love, in love with you suddenly

Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms

Our lips, can touch

Our lips, can touch...here

You are the one the one that lies close to me

Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly

I fell in love, in love with you suddenly

Now there's no place else I could be but here in your

You are the one the one that lies close to me

Whisper's hello I miss you miss you

I fell in love, in love with you suddenly

Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms

Here in your arms.

Here in your arms.

Artist : HelloGoodbye

Artist : My Chemical Romance

Genre : Modern Rock

When I was a young boy,

                   My father took me into the city

To see a marching band.

He said,

"Son when you grow up, will you be

the saviour of the broken,

The beaten and the damned?"

He said

"Will you defeat them, your demons,

and all the non believers, the plans that they have made?"

Because one day I leave you,

A phantom to lead you in the summer,

To join the black parade."

Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me.

And other times I feel like I should go.

Through it all, the rise and fall, the bodies in the streets.

When you're gone we want you all to know

We'll Carry on,

We'll Carry on

Though your dead and gone believe me

Your memory will carry on

Carry on

We'll carry on

And in my heart I cant contain it

The anthem wont explain it.

And we will send you reeling from decimated dreams

Your misery and hate will kill us all

So paint it black and take it back

Lets shout it loud and clear

Do you fight it to the end

We hear the call to

To carry on

We'll carry on

Though your dead and gone believe me

Your memory will carry on

We'll carry on

And though you're broken and defeated

You're weary widow marches on

And on we carry through the fears

Ooh oh ohhhh

Disappointed faces of your peers Ooh oh ohhhh

Take a look at me cause

I could not care at all Do or die

You'll never make me

Cause the world, will never take my heart

You can try, you'll never break me

Want it all,

I'm gonna play this part

Wont explain or say i'm sorry

I'm not ashamed,

I'm gonna show my scar

You're the chair, for all the broken Listen here,

because it's only..

I'm just a man,

I'm not a hero

Just a boy, who's meant to sing this song

Just a man,

I'm not a hero

I -- don't -- care

Carry on

We'll carry on

Though your dead and gone believe me

Your memory will carry on

We'll carry on

And though you're broken and defeated

You're weary widow marches on

We'll carry on

We'll carry on

We'll carry on

We'll carry

We'll carry on

she waited in the corner for jesse. the skool hallways are empty as she is sopose to be in class, but she thinks it’s all worth it just for him.

she waits for just a while, a little after the bell rings he arrives at her side.

she jumps up in excitement her first time diching class and all with her beast friened.

Jesse and sam knew each other since they were kids always playing together and protecting each other no matter what.

sam looks into Jesse’s warm sea blue eyes and thinks back to all those times that hes saved her life.

she remembers not to long ago when she was going to commite suicide when she heared that her mother had died.

Her mother was going home from work when a car hit her. it was a hit and run.

sam cried for ages and told everything to jesse. he stayed at her side every day and night.

“sam, sam!!!!! hey sam im here!!!!!”

what? oh hey jesse!! so whats up why did you ask me to come with you for?

“well this was important and i don’t think we should be in school when you hear this”

“ok what is it you sound scared?!?!?!?!?!”

they walk out into the parking lot. and start to talk.

“sam i need you to know something”

“yah?”

“sam i … i … need you to promise that you wont get shocked and runaway”

“YAH GO TELL ME!!!!!!!!”

“i think”…………………………………………………………………. he mumbled the words cause he was nerves and didn’t want to scare her away. the words were so close together   “ithinkiloveyou!!!!!!!!!”

jesse felt that his heart would come out of his body. he felt like he had butterflys in his stomach.

um… “what did you say?” replyed sam

jesse bent down and kissed her it was like he had finally found the girl in his dreams.

jesse has always loved sam. infact that’s the only reason he went up to talk to her the first day they met. he remembers going up to the beutifule girl next door to help her get up because she had fallen off her trycicle. he was only five at the time and she was three but he knew that him and sam would always be together.

he slowly backed away from sam trying to figure out the exprecion in her face.

she looked down at the ground for a while and then looked up and started screaming at him

“what you think that just because you kiss me im going to stay here, (tears were forming in her eyes), i already told you i cant stay and your fake kisses wont change a thing so please leave me alone! i don’t want to leave because of you!!!” she started to walk away but jesse stoped her

“sam  you don’t understand that kiss isn’t fake i thought that if you knew how i felt about you you wouldn’t go”

“jesse thers nothing you can do im going. i want to live with my dad. but i didn’t think that you would go as far as doing this. its to much.”

“i love you sam”

“and i love you but whats with the kiss?”

“no sam…” he grabed her and made her look into his eyes “sam i love you more than you could ever know i’ve always loved you” and he bent down to kiss her again but she turned her head away and with out another word she went back into the school.

the day seemed to be going by slowly for jesse he wanted to hurry up and see sam he wanted her to talk to him. it was seventh period and sam had ignored him for the whole day. he just wanted to hurry up and met her at her car. jeese understood why she had to go home but he didn’t want her to leave him. he would have gone to a colige close to her if he could but his grades wernt good enufe for a scholoarship and he didn’t have the money for a University.

2

sam couldn’t believe what jesse had done. he kissed her and then he tried to kiss her again. she walked away from him, she felt that he was just playing with her but jesse would never do anything like that jesse’s better than any other boy out there.

sam was starting to get theses strange feelings for jesse and when they were together she almost always would think of reaching over and kissing him. But now he had kissed her.

Sam didn’t want to feel this way twards jesse she thought that it would ruin their friendship. she was falling in love slowly but clearly. she tried to denie the feelings she had for him and she tried really hard to cover it and forget about it. it seemed to work when she wasn’t around him but when she saw his soft brown curls and his sea blue eyes she couldn’t help but think of kissing him.

sam was a kind sensitive girl almost any insult you throw at her will make her cry. but that’s what jesse’s for. he defends his beast friend and stays beside her nomatter what.

sam wanted to be with jesse and talk to him but she thought that he would bring up what happened that morning. she didn’t want to hurt jesse but she felt that she should go live with her dad. ever since her mother died shes been living with her aunt and now she felt it was time to go visit her mothers grave sight back in Chicago.

when sam was around nine her and her father would go back and fourth from Chicago to Texas to visit her  aunt during the summer but since her mom died she didn’t want to go back. she stayed down in Texas with her aunt and hadn’t thought of going back till just this year. it was her sinor year at TownView high and she thought that it was finally time to go back to Chicago to live with her dad and see her mom. she had even found some good schools that she was qualified for that were close to where her dad lived.

but all that meant leaving jesse behined.

3

the bell rang at exactly 3:45 jesse was the first one out the door. He just had to beat sam to her car. He got to the car and looked into the windows to see if she was starting the car. She wasn’t there?

He waited and waited until it was starting to get dark and then decided to walk home. He was almost out of the parking lot when he heard a car getting started he terned around to see sams car backing out. Jesse ran towards the car yelling,

“Sam please wait. Stop the car we need to talk!!”

the car stopped and the driver pulled down the window. It wasn’t sam it was his Geometry teacher,

“ Sorry to disappoint you  Jesse but im not sam.”

Jesse couldn’t belive that he had gotten the wrong car how could he not remember what Sam’s car looked like after all those years.

“Do you want a ride home hone?” Mrs. Elsa, his geometry teacher, asked.

“No I think I’ll walk home”

“Ok. I’ll see you in class tomorrow then. Bye.

Jesse terned the other way and started walking. The whole time wondering how he could have confused Sam’s car. By the time he got home it was already 9 o’clock. Jesse looked over twards Sam’s house she was still not home. He was unlocking his door when he saw her pull up. He looked down at his watch 9:03 she got home after him. how was that possible if she had a car and he had walked. Jesse

"Behind Blue Eyes"

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies

[Chorus:]
But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like i do, and i blame you!
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

[Chorus]

Discover l.i.m.p. say it [x4]
No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
No one knows how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies

[Chorus]

No one knows what its like
To be the bad man, to be the sad man
Behind blue eyes.

Her name is Auroura
She was only five
This is what happened
When she was alive


Her dad was a drunk
Her mom was an addict
Her parents kept her
Locked in an attic


Her only friend
was a little toy bear
It was old and worn out
And had patches of hair


She always talked to it
When no one's around
She lays there and hugs it
Not a peep of sound


Until her parents
unlock the door
Some more and more pain
She'll have to endure


A bruise on her leg
A scar on her face
Why would she be
In such a horrible place?


But she grabs her bear
And softly cries
She loves her parents
But they want her to die


She sits in the corner
Quiet but thinking,
" God, why? Why is
My life always sinking? "


Such a bad life
For a sad little kid
She'd get beaten and beaten
For anything she did


Then one night
Her mom came home high
The poor child was hit and slapped
As hours went by


Then her mom suddenly
Grabbed for a blade
It was sharp and pointy
One that she made


She thrusted the blade
Right in her chest,
" You deserve to die
You worthless pest! "


The mom walked out
Leaving the girl slowly dieing
She grabbed her bear
And again started crying


Police showed up
At the small little house
The quickly barged in
Everything was as quiet as a mouse


One officer slowly
opened a door
to find the sad little girl
lying on the floor


It must have been bad
To go through so much harm
But at least she died
With her best friend in her arms

“i think of you but do you think of me?”

this is what’s in my sad, sad mind.

have you ever been scared of getting raped for the fear that you might like it?

have you ever thought that the only thing you want Santa to bring you for Christmas

 is the pain of love and a loss of a loved one?

have you ever thought that drugs were the only way out?

maybe a slit to your wrists?

or covering your pain with a smile,

even clothes?

hiding the imprints people leave on your skin or self-esteem

have you ever hid the true feelings you feel for the one you “love”?

you know, “it’s for pity”,

 “it was for the baby”,

“i’m afraid to lose you and never be able to get you back”,

 i don’t want you its just to piss off my ex”.

have you ever felt that life would be better if it were over?

no one needs you, or no ones going to cry.

your wrong there is always someone

 there that will always care no matter how much they deny it.

you can never stop loving or caring for someone.

they will always be in your mind

in your heart

even in your soul

have you ever wanted to cry for a friend that is in pain but couldn’t

 shed a tear because you had already cried out every last one the night before?

have you ever felt stupid when you cried for someone you thought deserved your love?

 but later on you find out he was hurting for a stupid reason after all.

he was cutting because his girl broke up with him.

he was cutting in the middle of class so that his

ex  could see the pain he was giving himself, so she could cry for him once more.

have you ever felt that everyone else’s pain is the power to your happiness?

have you ever felt that a bit of happiness was far to out of reach?

have you ever cried so hard because everyone around you ridicules your existence in life?

because no one around you will dare to be your friend?

then there is the happy crying.

because the person you have always loved finally says they love you back.

because for the first time since you were in elementary school

you have found the best of friends the world could ever give you

just because…

when you cry just because you’ve had a good day

when you cry because your friend is finally having her baby when she’s just in high school

when you’re graduating high school, or because some of your friends are

and finally

when you lived your life the way you wanted to and its finally time to give some one else a chance at this fear full game

have you ever loved someone so much that at times it pushes over the edge you just get so mad

maybe you even yell at a person or two

… … … … … … … …

i have

i feel so stupid because he has no idea that i’m in love

that the only person that is on my mind every second of my life is him

he’s the only one that i want to be with

i feel so stupid because it’s against everything that i ever believed in

you know like stupid high school soap-operas

the sad little girls that have nothing better to do than to cry for a boy

well that’s what i’m up to now-a-days

sitting at home typing little depressing poems about a boy i love that will never know it

*(urgh)*

sometimes i just piss myself off

thinking about this one and only guy

setting myself up for heart break

torture

and all the sadness and pain this “love” could possibly bring

have you ever felt that way?

like there is no possible way that you could ever not think of this guy?

that you could never not “love” him?

i have

millions of times

i just hope that one day all this “pain” and “heart ache” will leave me forever

with only the thoughts of why i ever loved him running through my head

Written by: Portia Nelson

Chapter one

I walk down the street

There is a deep hole in the side walk

I fall in

I am lost… I’m helpless

It isn’t my fault

It takes forever to get out

Chapter two

I walk down the same street

There is a deep hole in the side walk

I pretend I don’t see it

I fall in again

I can’t believe I am in this same place

But, it isn’t my fault

It still takes along time to get out

Chapter three

I walk down the same street

There is a deep hole in the side walk

I see it is there

I still fall in… it’s a habit… but,

My eyes are open

I know where I am

It is my fault

I get out immediately

Chapter four

I walk down the same street

There is a deep hole in the side walk

I walk around it

Chapter five

I walk down another street

It takes a minute to like someone an hour to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone

… … … …

Some people say its holding on that makes one strong- but sometimes it’s letting go…

… … …

There is a girl in my mirror crying tonight, and there is nothing i can say to make her feel alright

… … …

I can’t talk to you anymore. it’s not that i’m mad at you, but when i talk to you i realize how much i love you and when i realize how much i love you, i realize that i can’t have you and that makes me love you even more.

… … …

It hurts to see you walk away for admit of not,

You were an important part of my life and the time we shared will forever be a part of me

So even though i know it was never meant to be, still, it HURTS

… … …

True love? I use to think it existed,

But when you’ve had your heart torn out and thrown on the floor,

You just don’t care anymore…

… … …

I can’t cry hard enough for you to hear me…

… … …

Why'd you leave me like this?
With scars across my heart and on my wrists
When I looked in your eyes
I didn't know happiness had a price...
I'm feeling broken
Scattered pieces on the ground
I'm feeling desperate now
can abandoned souls be found

… … …

Broken promise

… … …

Heart broken

… … …

You can’t fix me…

I’ve been broken for too long

… … …

I went to pick you a flower, but it was a venus-fly-trap and it bit my head, so i killed it and got you this piece of grass instead.

… … …

I drew you a picture but i spilled coffee all over it

… … …

I wish you would love me.

… … …

I’ll just pretend to hug you until you get here.

… … …

My favorite thing about eating gummy bears is knowing that they can’t fight back when you bite their heads off.

… … …

I made you a cookie but i eated it.

… … …

Something is holding us back…

… … …

You’re so hardcore.

… … …

May i please borrow your pen?

I need to stab you in the eye.

… … …

Tired of

EVERYTHING

… … …

And she says she doesn’t care anymore. But the look in her eyes and the sound of her voice tells a

Different

………story

… … …

You think i’m so tough, but… i just

Never

Let you see me

Cry.

… … …

Even my tear drops are lonely

… … …

I miss you

… … …

Why is it so hard to tell you that i love you if in my heart i know i do?

… … …

Why is it so hard to let you in again?

… … …

Just because I smile doesn't mean that I’m happy because it takes one smile to cover a million tears

… … …

The truth is you could slit my throat and with my one last *gasping* breath I’d apologize for bleeding on your shirt

… … …

Love isn't when you shed a tear and you still love him it’s when he loves another girl but you still smile and say "I’m happy for you" when all you really do is cry...

… … …

Its sad when someone you know...becomes someone you knew and when someone you love...becomes someone you hate

… … …

Softly we tremble tonight,
picture perfect fading smiles are all that's left in sight,
I said I'd never leave you'll never change
I'm not satisfied with where I'm at in life.

Am I supposed to be happy?
With all I ever wanted, it comes with a price.
Am I supposed to be happy?
With all I ever wanted, it comes with a price.
You said, you said that you would die for me...

We made plans to grow old,
believe me there was truth in all those stories that I told.
Lost in a simple game cat and mouse are we the same people as before this came to light?

Am I supposed to be happy?
with all I ever wanted, it comes with a price.
Am I supposed to be happy?
with all I ever wanted, it comes with a price.
You said, you said that you would die for me...

You must live for me too'...
For me too...yeah, yeah...
You said that you would die for me...

Am I supposed to be happy?
with all I ever wanted, it comes with a price.
Am I supposed to be happy?
with all I ever wanted, it comes with a price
You said, you said that you would die for me...

Angie, angie, when will those clouds all disappear?
Angie, angie, where will it lead us from here?
With no loving in our souls and no money in our coats
You cant say were satisfied
But angie, angie, you cant say we never tried
Angie, youre beautiful, but aint it time we said good-bye?
Angie, I still love you, remember all those nights we cried?
All the dreams we held so close seemed to all go up in smoke
Let me whisper in your ear:
Angie, angie, where will it lead us from here?
Oh, angie, dont you weep, all your kisses still taste sweet
I hate that sadness in your eyes
But angie, angie, aint it time we said good-bye?
With no loving in our souls and no money in our coats
You cant say were satisfied
But angie, I still love you, baby
Evrywhere I look I see your eyes
There aint a woman that comes close to you
Come on baby, dry your eyes
But angie, angie, aint it good to be alive?
Angie, angie, they cant say we never tried

I thought you were for me

I thought you would be everything

But seeing you with another girl doesn’t break me

It doesn’t hurt

So I hope you’re happy

I just want you to know

That I’ll always love you

But you and I can be no more

I dare you to care

I dare you to say you love me

I want you to lie in my face

To tell me all your stuped excuses for being with her

For speaking to her in a way you never speak to me

I dare to say “I love you”

I dare you to say you care

When we realy know your not there

Was it tha baby?

Or do you just pitty me?

Well look I don’t need you and you don’t want me

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